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FEB
2014
06

Operation Come Straight Here has not been working

at least not this morning. Let’s just let that go, shall we? I am here to write. I have probably 40 minutes. Let’s do something. But what about distractions and urges to just quick check the price of that heat exchange ventilation system? Love. Love love love. This is your time. This is it! For today. The next 40 minutes is all the time you have to write for today. Let’s get in there, okay? Going in.

JAN
2014
24

Where did the hour go?

Well, the word count proved not applicable, since what was needed was to go over existing text and fit it into this chapter. I think the spirit of the word count law is to keep moving along, and I would like to honor that. Can I finish some semblance of Ch. 7 by the end of this week, Sunday? I would like to try in a relaxed, but-it-doesn’t-REALLY-matter sort of way.

JAN
2014
24

6:32. I’m up.

Tea and Scrivener. Am I ready? Uhhh. Let’s see. It is Friday, no baby, I will have two hours to myself this morning while the kids are in preschool. Studies show that I am *less* motivated with more options to put it off. So like, I could open up Scrivener now and just kind of putter and not really do anything because I feel like I will have time later, but then I will also fritter away the time later and nothing will get done. This is where word count goals come in handy. Really I would like to spend…

JAN
2014
23

A cold and weary trudge through deep snow

this morning, pausing now and then to entertain the temptation to just plop down in a drift and eat some snow while staring off into space. Got about half the words as yesterday, but still: forward motion. It’s a good thing. What I want more than smooth and painless word counts is the feeling that I am a writer who writes– through thick and thin. So, a pat on the back and a third cup of tea and done with this for now.

JAN
2014
22

Done,

including the possibly overly ambitious word count, finished with B on my lap. (Repeat after me: My self-worth has nothing to do with word counts.)

JAN
2014
22

I got up earlier today,

which is good. There are many many thoughts swirling, which is not as helpful. Focus! Love. You have exactly one hour. I would like us to write 1000 words. You know where to go and approximately what to say, just write them down, that is all you have to do. Don’t worry about all the other things, don’t write that email in your head, don’t rehearse the timing of all the things that need to be taken care of this morning, THERE WILL BE TIME FOR ALL THAT LATER. There is only time for this right now.

JAN
2014
21

What is in the way?

Little things. Trim my fingernails. There are now three emails I need to respond to. Board stuff. None of that applies here at 6:30 am, I did not draw on scarce reserves of self-discipline or whatever it was to get out of bed to answer email, or to worry about that. Feeling a little pressure. If I’m going to keep up with the chapter-a-week thing, I need to make tracks on Chapter 7 today. Let’s exert ourselves, but let’s also relax. Progress is progress. Any progress is better than no progress, and sometimes progress isn’t even visible. (But maybe today…

JAN
2014
18

It is much harder to focus

on the book in the middle of the afternoon. Things compete. Maybe I should take a nap on the floor. Maybe I should do some other ‘to-dos’. Maybe I should write out a long processing monologue on me and money and what does a right purchasing decision look like? How can one tell? Maybe I should give up an hour of my me-day to take the kids to the library. Or maybe I’ll just work on the book. If that is the case, then here is what I would like: I would like a solution to my thinking problem. Actually,…

JAN
2014
05

1. I am not motivated at all by money.

2. Not only am I not motivated by money, I find money to be actually DEmotivating. 3. So, in this situation, what is motivating me to complete this work? Two motivational situations: what gets me to start, and what gets me to continue once I start. What gets me to start is the most mysterious/unpleasant. It is some sort of combination of fear/dread/shame/doom/not wanting to be flaky or let people down. What gets me to continue, once I’m in it, is the more or less happy hum of working with words. More specifically: I like to solve problems. More specifically:…

AUG
2012
07

Got it. Time. An hour and a half

of writing, approximately. Reasons why it would behoove me to push through the fog and write 2000-ish words in the next 90 minutes: It’s going to be just me and the kids until I go to sleep tonight. Writing would give me a sense of accomplishment and allow me to play. Chapter 5 wants to be written. If I wrote 2000 words, I could tear off a link in the 24-link-construction-paper chain that I am thinking of making. One step at a time. Don’t get ahead of yourself. This is what we’re working on right now. Chapter 5, first part.…