I feel a repulsion because the end is where the biggest, most glaring weaknesses live. It is just a list. I just want to list out what happens so that it is easier to look at and think about. This list is going to be a tool for thinking, I don’t know how that thinking is going to happen. Do I need to know that? Not at this sitting. I just need to carry on with the list. There will be pre-reqs for the thinking, and they will include a clean space and silence and solitude. I will figure out how to get those things, but this list is in preparation for that time, so that I don’t need to spend my thinking time on administrivia and lists.

Yes, that is the point of this. Setting up the thinking time.

I can do this.